Getting older isn't for the faint of heart!
"Fat titties turn to teardrops as fat ass turns to flab, sores that was open wounds eventually turn to scabs, trees bright and green turn yellow brown autumn caught em, see Autumn leaves must fall down growing old" 13th FLOOR/GROWING OLD- OutKast
Raise your hand if you want to live forever! Vic Mensa has a song that has kids in the background chanting I wish I could live forever, I really like the song, but to be 100% clear, that's never been a wish of mine!
Growing up the way we did, and losing friends at such an early age, not only was living forever far from a thought, living until 25 became a goal! When I look back at that now, I know that it was foolish, but it was the reality that myself and many of my peers faced. Which is why as of lately, understanding that I'm 20years beyond that goal has become a little surreal for me.
As I write this, by no means am I ready to throw the towel in, or do I feel that my best days are behind me! With time seeming to move at such a rapid pace, I do feel it necessary to get a better grasp on the role that I'm now qualified to play, that I may play it to the best of my ability.
The coolest older people that I've known and respected were those that understood the times, and how they fit into them.. Contrarily, the lamest ones have always been the ones holding on to a time that has passed on and they won't accept it!
Throughout my lifetime I've been far from right or even righteous all of the time, one of my better qualities have been that I am able to assess myself, or check myself to see where I need improvement. The self assessing isn't so hard, it's the act of improving and adapting that is a quiet war going on inside. The ego will tell you your right, and that things should be the way you see them, when in reality you're wrong as two left shoes!
Having a conversation with my 25 year old son, I told him of how although I don't see things getting better in the world for our people with my eyes, with my heart I hold out for hope!
I want to see young people succeed and have it better than any of our generations. I want to see and hear them hopeful of a future that doesn't offer a thought of dying at a young age. I want for them all the resources that they need to become successful happy individuals. I want us to stop hurting us, inside the home, as well as outside. Essentially, for all with understanding, I'm praying that the curse be lifted off of our people..
I created a brand in 2020, initially just something I felt the desire to do that went along with the Audacity of Hip Hop Album.. but my role doesn't fit that of a rapper at this time of my life!
Although it's something I have the skill for, I'm not sure that it ever did.. Inspiring young people and assisting them to be the best version of themselves is where it's at for me, and I believe I would be content giving all I have to see with my eyes, what my hear longs to see!